update on my personal ish

So I’ve been in a relationship for the last 2 ½ years. I ended it recently. I’ve been over him for months though, I was just lying to myself saying I loved him when I didn’t. I’m moving home to a different state than where I’m at right now at the end of the month. I’m not ready for another relationship, but I’ve never had anything casual. In fact he was my first. My friends convinced me to go meet up with this guy I met, he’s sexy AF omfg. Like no joke he’s 10/10 insanely hot. And he’s super into me. He knows I’m leaving at the end of the month so we agreed to not get serious, cause he’s newly single too. So we’ve just been hanging out…. and hooking up lol. It’s SO good. I didn’t know what I was missing shit 😂😛😍 it’s crazy to me that I’m doing this because I have never done anything like this before. But I’m loving it! It’s giving me so much confidence. He’s a really cool guy, like super nice, has his shit together, if I were staying here and not moving I would not be hooking up with him, cause I’d want a relationship. To me, if you want a relationship you don’t sleep with the other person right away. But I know that isn’t happening, and so does he. It just sucks cause he’s so fun and I really like him, but it’s awful timing. I just wanted to let it out somewhere so thank you tumblr

fullmetalfisting:

Jk Rowling: “dumbledore is rollerblading in every scene. He rollerblades everywhere and hasn’t walked in 30 years. It is never mentioned because it wasn’t relevant to Harry’s journey”

gusmen:

“i don’t watch tv” proudly says a person who spend 8 hours a day in the internet

We have been together for 2 and a half years. I thought it was love. I thought we would be together forever. And that’s what he still thinks. I have to break up with him. I can not do it anymore. This will break his heart, but I have to do what’s best for me. When we met, I was in shape, financially stable, happy for once, actively working towards my goals in a responsible and mature way; I had my shit together. Him, he lived in a garage with two other guys(his cousins), he did not have a drivers’ license(we were 19 when we met), he had only ever worked one job for a family members company, he had no credit, and was bad with his money. But boy was he charming, and boy did he know how to talk to me. At 6 months of dating we moved in together with my former roommate and her boyfriend. At this point I had stopped going to the gym, because I was spending all my time with him and he didn’t work out. At first things were amazing and we were all happy. Around 6 months into that, he started to not be able to cover all of his part of the bills. He smokes a lot, weed and tobacco, and thats where his extra money would go. He would ask me to pay and that he would pay me back later, but he never did. At Christmas time he could not afford gifts for his family, so I bought them all and he said he would pay me back, he never did. Although we did get gifts for each other. When the roommates left, other room mates moved in, and that didn’t go too well. This was at a year and a half of dating, one year of living together.  They moved out quickly and completely screwed me over financially. We decided to not do roommates anymore and we moved out on our own to an apartment more inland because it was cheaper. Unfortunately we did not have the money to pay for moving, so I got a personal loan. Again, at this point I was paying for everything but his half of the rent. I even started buying ALL the groceries because he could never afford them. He told me I wasn’t alone and he would pay for half of the loan. Can you guess if he ever did? At this point I am out of shape, overweight, depressed and in debt. Quite a bit of debt. My 21st birthday rolled around, the biggest birthday of many people’s lives. Usually the most celebrated. He did not get me a single thing, not even a card. He lied, and said that it was something personalized so it was taking longer to ship and that it would be here soon. If he had just said he could not afford gifts I would have been fine. But instead he lied and did not even try to make me feel special. Among all this, he also doesn’t clean. I do all the dishes, I sweep the floors, I do all the laundry, and mind you I work an average of 50 hours a week while he does 36. He continuously says he’s gonna look for another job/better job but he doesn’t take action on it. He is all talk. I even redid his resume for him and offered to fill out the applications for him. Then comes his drug addict older brother. He is an alcoholic and flipped out on his wife so she got him arrested and put a restraining order on him. Guess where he crashed?? On our couch for three months. Not paying us anything. I now had to clean up and pay for not only myself, not only him, but also his older brother. This put a major strain on our relationship. He finally left and things were getting back to normal. We would still fight a lot, always ALWAYS about money or cleaning. Never anything else. During this time I am not doing good in school, I am out of shape and I am not happy. Still, he wont get a new job, doesn’t think that the fact that his girlfriend pays for everything is reason enough to quit smoking and put that money towards bills. Finally, this month at two and a half years of dating i’ve decided i’ve had enough. I will not carry him and mother him his whole life. I am all for splitting things and having an equal relationship but bitch this is not it! I already made up my mind and already know where I am moving and when. I just need to tell him. This is the hardest thing because I know he loves me and its going to break his heart. I don’t know how to do this. If anyone read through this, do you have any advice?